Sunday, November 01, 2009

purplebr hollywood studios

here is the base for my hollywood studios style bedroom.

when I was deciding what color for the bedroom, I wanted gold, then no dark pink, then a trendy, chic grey/tan, and then I finally just thought, 'what color do you want to wake up to and have to look at first thing every morning for a couple of years at least?"

I grabbed a handfull of purple paint chips and wandered over to the houseware area in Walmart and started holding them up to dark red pillows and yellow curtins and then different pieces of art and decided on this one.

The Kilz One Coat guarantee was a crock, though. Still gonna need 2 coats, for some reason. I even stopped painting and drove to Home Depot to get different paint rollers, but it was not a case of equipment problems. From smooth to medium/rough finish rollers, the paint was streaky as can be. Good thing I'm only doing one room!

I really love it!

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Why I don't have time to go to SNB groups

It would be cool, ya know? One of my all time fav things to do was 'hang out with friends' back when I was much MUCH younger. But then my list of responsibilities was like this:

Clean room, homework, um yea.

Then I had my first child at 18, and it grew to:

Care for baby, clean room, do laundry, argue with my Mom.

Then... well the kids came and I had a house and 4 children and eventually went to nursing school and any time 'hanging out with friends' dwindled down to literally twice a year.

Now the kids are grown. I bought this 2 family and fixed up the apartment upstairs to be habitable again. It looks very nice. My doctor even gave me a high five when I told him that I put in a working sink that doesn't even leak! Yessss! So, after all that, it turns out that my son and his girl are going to move in up their. See, they're having a baby. I will finally be a grandma.

So it looks like I have a shorter list again:

Play with grandchild, clean my room, work, argue with my Mom. But despite being shorter, I don't see any time in there for sitting at a coffee shop with strangers and knitting.

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Sunrise @ Mont Blanc

Sunrise @ Mont Blanc
Originally uploaded by teo de pap
Where does one have to be to get a shot like this?

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Khayal : Stressed out

Khayal : Stressed out
Originally uploaded by KhayaL
There isn't 'too much' going on right now. I traded my rent for my mortgage payment. I dabble in remodel when I have time, but there hasn't been hard deadlines. No new relationship stuff to speak of.

So why did I lose my temper at work? The day was like any other day. Same place, same people, same problems. But for some reason I snapped on September 28 2009.

One more stone for the bucket of life. Actually, this is the second in a matter of a few months. Regarding that other incident I didn't snap, but I did indeed do something I would love to take back.

The song lyric 'we're only human after all' keeps running through my head today. But that's not enough to make me have peace with it. I guess I just wish I knew why.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

last day at rocky neck '09

i got there @ 10:45 and it the sun was very hot. sweaty, hot, a bit surprised, i sprayed on the coppertone.

I tried to crochet but the string kept rolling across my sticky sunscreeny legs. Then I got in the water for a few, and the seagulls pulled my plastic bag of crochet out of the beachtote. The wip got all sandy. I put it back, and walked a bit more in the shallow warm surf.

And then I got bored and tired of the biting blackflies and headed home. I managed to stay for an hour.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

play mat

play mat
Originally uploaded by SaĆ­dos da Concha
This is made by a lady who says she tries to 'live a simple life in Lisbon Portugal." I want to trade lifes for a while.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

rip b&d

rip b&d
Originally uploaded by VeniVidiVknitty
i needed to recharge it.

i plugged it into the same charger i use for my laptop.

i set it on top of a pile of papers that are on top of my printer.

i heard it pop and sizzle and saw smoke after 20 minutes on the charger.

i carried it out to the yard praying it wouldn't burst into flames in my hands.

i cried.

and now i'm shopping for a new one.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

bath before

bath before
Originally uploaded by VeniVidiVknitty
Well Sabrina, I went ahead without you and picked out a very soft, clean, breezy feeling light blue and started painting the apt. bathroom.

The walls are stucco, so I had to really roll that sucker back and forth alot. I guess my arms are getting a good work out anyway. But you would have really enjoyed helping me paint and chatting about how nice it will look after we're done. O yes, but you weren't there Sabrna Soto. You weren't there.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

so this is where I woundup

... sitting almost right on top of the Coast Guard Academy in New London Connecticut, about 1.5 miles from where I spent a good chunk of my youth.

And actually I'm ok with it. This is one of the nicest places to be. It's quiet. i see the lights of Fairview dancing on the Thames River every night out of my bedroom window. The little house has a nice flow, and there are plenty of bathrooms. So we did ok afterall.

Now, if I could only get those hung ceilings replaces, like 'yesterday'.

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

Beach a Rabat

Beach a Rabat
Originally uploaded by pamelaviola
some people are so doggone freakin' lucky. that's all i gotta say.

Monday, June 29, 2009

cara and josh lookalikes

while at seaworld we saw a couple who strongly resembled Cara and Josh so here's the snap to prove it.

this was just a super fun vacation, every day we did something completely wonderful... and i'm pretty sure the times were appreciated even more because of recent loss of two family members.

count your blessings, every day, and life gets better b/c of it.

Sunday, June 07, 2009

Rush Hour at Salisbury Road, HK

The energy in this photo is the way I feel about going on vacation. I'm vibrating a little... having trouble sleeping... constantly occupied or preoccupied with the idea of lifting off and getting away.

The inside of the plane becomes this safe, quiet pod where no one can ring for me or yell for me every time I walk past their door on the way to do something else. I can put in the earphones, have a drink and float away from the stress to somewhere hot and fun.

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

Budget vacation here we come! With recipes!

So over on spitefulchef's blog she's got a killer recipe for honeydew mojitos. When we visit Wonderful Walmart in the WDW area, we are getting the ingredients for this stuff and mixing up a bunch.

See.. I have a small 'smoothie' blender that's coming with us. I am supertempted to take my crock pot as well, but housekeeping will either a. smell the wonderful aromas of coconut chicken and turkey chili and EAT IT ALL... or b. tell on me.

I can't wait for vacation. Some ittle part of me still feels like a creepo for this b/c my cousin and his wife have lost their 22 yo son unexpectedly. But I think that if I could talk to Josh again he would say that I need to go and have fun with my girls (19 and 22) while we still have life and breath in us.

Sparkpeople, Ravelry, WDW, tripadvisor and twitter are calling me. Bye!

Monday, June 01, 2009

sad, very sad

Originally uploaded by innitpam
this is me. and i'm smiling but actually in this picture, there is a sad situation going on.

this person, me, was not taking care of herself. she was focusing more on the things she did wrong or nevr got around to.

now, using sparkpeople, that mindset is changing. positives are going to count for double what anything negative is worth. no, my blog is not going to be me crying about my relationship with food, or how being single and almost 50 and no grandbabies is making me depressed. cuz it's actually not.

whatever was making me so neglectful toward my own wellbeing has sort of vanished in a poof and now things are diffrent every day because i am not 'weight loss' oriented or 'work out oriented.'

i am just going to give myself permission to respect myself and my body every day.

Friday, May 22, 2009

Romantic lacy pink headband

I want to get my old crochet hook set out and start making wildly pink and yellow and orange flowers. I guess it's bc of summer and the prospect of a great vacation, etc. Well, whatever the reason it's a good impulse so I must remember to bring my hook to work tomorrow for lunch break.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

noro hat

noro hat
Originally uploaded by *Lele
oooooo noooo(ro)!!

i definately feel a new obsession coming on. well, maybe it's because i've had a void of 'big events' in my life for a while.

No more house hunting, kid rearing, job searching, etc. i've gotten the family all booked for a orlando vacation, and the house is closing at the end of june, but that's all not happening for about a month.

anyhoo, LOVE the hat and the yarn. Alawt.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009


Originally uploaded by innitpam
I remember making these and being so disappointed that the yarn was scratchy.

Monday, May 11, 2009

Three Cool Cats

Here are comments for this pic:

(old lady) I like that guy's shirt in the middle.. i might have to steal his look

(me) O why not.. after all he apparently stole 'your' purse. haha.

YES. Things are looking up at work. Things are not going well for me healthwise, but you can't win em all.

Monday, April 27, 2009

Typhoon Lagoon

Typhoon Lagoon
Originally uploaded by auntie rain
wow do I ever need this again.

The problem is it's a teensy bit pricey .... and I'm in the process of buying a house.... so it will have to wait.

The OTHER problem is that I'm getting super stressed out and it's harder for me to keep my mouth shut and just put my head down and do my job since they're sending idiot co-workers down to my side of the building. I'm older and maybe it's the menopause or maybe it's because these are truely the most selfish lazy people I've ever had to deal with, I dunno.

I'd like to wrap up the entry with something hopeful but I just don't have it in me.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

HBW: Autumn in April

Azaleas are nearly perfect. These look a bit fantastical in the photo. I know there's nothing really FANTASTIC about an azalea bush and in fact I won't have enough room in front of the house to fit one, but it's still fun to imagine one there.

I guess maybe we'll just need to stick with another favorite, hostas.

Monday, April 20, 2009

Heading to Soarin

Heading to Soarin
Originally uploaded by SCL Photography
I love this photo because it looks 'hot' and 'busy' as well as containing interesting subject matter.

How funny is that? A hot and busy day on vacation sounds like heaven, yet all the while I complain about work being always so 'hot and busy.'

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Love Is Light

Love Is Light
Originally uploaded by | JERRY |
What if....

... what if today was the last day I would ever be able to feel love?

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

David and Ginny

David and Ginny
Originally uploaded by 50s Pam
pre WWII paper dolls

I totally envy those sweet soft curls she has. His too come to think of it. He seems to be saying " Hey. Come on over and we'll take turns setting Ginny's dolls on fire or something" And she's all like "Ohhhh, *promise?* Then... then can we set you on fire cuz you're made of paper, remmmmmember?"

Sunday, April 05, 2009

isla tortuga waiting blues

gosh i need a break.

every single day at work is bringing more and more difficult happenings.... for example, the last day I worked I was told that corporate demands my resignation from my part time job at the sister facility in Mystic. Because:


'the possibility"??? Ok, at the beginning of this year, my boss had no problem paying out roughly 100K to other people in overtime, of which 435.00 went to me. The main bulk of the money went to a handfull of folks, and I just happened to be offered a chance to pick up time TWICE. Ahha, 16 whole hours. Oh and I am totally allowed to pick up a shift at my home facility, no problems with that. The only thing is they never offer me the time because the scheduler is too busy giving the hours to her favorites.

And now that the economy is in crappy shape and I am gong to have trouble getting another part time job, I am told that I must resign from the one place that can throw me a couple of shifts a month if I'm lucky?

I'm ready to go to the press.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

I stand on the beach alone,and gaze at the misty blue... I wish I could pause this moment forever...

This is the only place where I dare to exhale that I know I will be alone for the rest of my life. I won't tell it anywhere else to any living person. On the few times I said something the hearer was moved to tell me I am wrong and to try and comfort me by telling me I am wrong. Based on whimsey and only whimsey they tell me I will meet someone. Stop and think. Add up the facts. I will be single for the rest of my life.

I don't want comfort in it, I just want someone to say "you're right." And then, if they absolutely must try to make the awkward situation better then they can say 'and I know you are strong and will be happy."

Not "oh no you'll meet someone." Not "STOP SAYING THAT. You can find someone if you want to."

Help me to embrace myself, as a single person, who can find happy moments and worthwhile work. If I seem to be getting lonely just remind me that being single for the rest of my life isn't the worst thing that could happen to me.

Monday, March 09, 2009

Blow'd Up

Blow'd Up
Originally uploaded by IceNineJon
This depicts the very reason I want so badly to go back and vacation in the WDW area every chance I get. The drama and fun! The spectacle! The explosions!!

Maybe we can find a way to just squeeze out a week in the Fall.

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

minnie ears at Splash Mountain

Tonight I was unable to quickly state how many times I've been to WDW... can you imagine?!

So after thinking a bit theres:

first time
2nd time (we went in August for a full week)
anniversary with just my (ex) husband
time with my sister
time i took my eldest son who had never been at all
then the time I went with my girls and David
and November 2008 when all the kids came along

'7' times!!

But don't think I'm done going to WDW. Nope. I'll be back some day. There's always the graaaaaandbabies. Heh.

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

Funny... usually.

Originally uploaded by blaine davis
This is a GREAT photo. I love that the boy is laughing open mouthed at something he finds obviously hysterical. The girl is amused as well, but she is intent on keeping her eyes open while she enjoys the humor.

it reminds me of when I was out earlier today. Something funny was said. I was driving. As we all know, laughter is the best medicine, and good for the soul, which I agree with in theory.

But I was driving. And laughing alot like this boy. I couldn't help it. My son retold me a story and it was THAT funny. So funny in fact that my eyeballs nearly burst out of my skull from the force of my hysterical laughter. I think I pulled a gut muscle or something. We almost died in a car accident.

Then I stopped laughing, wiped the tears away. popped my eyeballs back into the sockets and thought a 'sad thought' untiil we arrived at our destination in one piece.

Now don't let this stop you from cracking a joke next time the mood strikes. Just don't do it while someone else is driving.

Monday, February 09, 2009

knitting socks

Yes, I am going to officially become a 'sockie.' With some help from youtube vids and following the directions on the inside of the yarn wrapper, I am actually doing it.

Maybe it's true that you're never too old to learn. Wouldn't it be nice if I was too old for cysts and infected blisters. Yes, I have both. Hence the reason I am home 'sick' today from work. My friend covered my shift, so no worries. The same friend suggested I get some prep H for the cyst. It will shrink it from it's present size (about as big as Alaska) down significantly (to let's say,only the side of Rhode Island) without having to go to the gyno office and deal with all the embarassment.

In the mean time, until I can get over to the drug store, I will be here knitting my first ever sock. Yay.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Big Thunder 200th post! Booyah!

Big Thunder
Originally uploaded by Matt Pasant
We didn't get a ride on Big Thunder during our last visit. And now..............well now I have a pin code for a great savings on 5 night/6day in Disney..... but no one to go with me.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

David vs. Goliath

David vs. Goliath
Originally uploaded by Crazy Ivory
This picture explains how I am feeling at work. Except instead of a rose, it's a big and ugly group of nurses and admin-types.

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

chicken mango-coconut soup

chicken mango-coconut soup
Originally uploaded by innitpam
well, it starts.

time to have the mind of a maniacal money-saving Mom-ster, just like in the old days.

I got the dishes from TJMaxx. There is some mango-coconut sauce and adobo added to the chicken left overs, so it tastes TAH DAH but it only cost 45 cents a serving.

What's the story?

During the past 46 years, I've lived in Connecticut. I've traveled up and around the U.S. and to Puerto Rico, and loved every minute. I've had 4 children who are now fantastically talented adult artists and comedians. I've been married and then divorced and then engaged and then single and finally *big sigh* content. I've grown into a darn good nurse, cook, seamstress, and Mom.

Maybe one of these days I'll get this 'writing' thing down, too.

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